Dear LJ folks,
I would like to hear all your arguments for or against gastric bypass surgery (specifically, as an option for me) and any and all relevant studies or personal experiences.
--I am a diabetic who takes over 400 units a day of insulin, plus metformin.
--Insulin resistance is an issue.
--I currently weigh over 400 lbs; no accurate scale at present.
--I have major knee issues and back issues, preventing walking more than short distances and standing for long periods.
--Given issues mentioned previously, I cannot do most standard exercises but am looking for alternatives.
--My left leg has been swollen constantly since my car accident in 2005, but nothing has shown up on x-rays and other tests as a cause.
--The left foot swells periodically very badly at the ankle such that it has to be elevated for extended periods of time.
--Limited mobility and weight gain have fed into existing issues with depression.
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Will be adding commentary sometime this weekend.
It's been such a long time. Priorities need shifting.
I am in the middle of a grading marathon, and I'm seriously slowing down, but I just wanted to mention that things are looking a little better right now. James has been away for three weeks in Colorado, but he comes home tomorrow. And the reason he's been away is...
HE GOT A JOB!!!
And it's a real job, with nifty extras. Less nifty about the three-week training far, far away, but as they say, you do what you have to do so you can do what you want to do.
I've been carrying the mutual financial burden (with massive assistance from my mother) for a long time now; this will help us actually make it on our own, and maybe even consider future plans.
I have to run, because I'm losing time like whoa, but I felt I should share the good news just as readily (indeed, more so) as I have charted my time down in the depths of major stress and depression.
I just want to see him again.
Fundamentally unsure about what is in my immediate and/or year-length future.
Learning clever new subtle nuances of pain palettes.
Cannot find an answer that fits. Cannot shoehorn any others in long enough.
Feeling so isolated. Knowing that contact would alleviate this until I began to hold others back with my limitations and become unfun again.
Missing the security of a fallback, emotional or otherwise.
Afraid I will be dead by the end of the decade or a hulking husk only able to wish it were so.
Cannot be arsed to care if people take issue with whining or drama or similar. Better than cutting.
I miss my dad. I miss the concept of family-that-I-didn't-have.
I miss who I was.
It's been roughly half a year since I wrote here last. I've been working my ass off and not feeling very awesome and only seeing friends occasionally.
And that sums up all that time, really.
Today I'm feeling pretty horrible, and so naturally I feel I must share it with the world via Facebook but in an obscure way so as not to overshare.
Status message: Karen Smith appreciates the value of consciousness but is not feeling it today.
I check my email just a bit ago and find this comment on my status:
Kathleen Duey: Theodora Nerak is standing in front of the door of the cheese shop, furious and strong and staring someone down. Just an update....
I still feel like shit, mind you, from a physical pain standpoint, but how can I not feel better when an author I LOVE leaves a message to me about a character based on me that she chose to write into her book?
It would just be ungrateful. To the universe.
Gods bless you, Kathleen Duey. I love you.
--And I love you all.
Now I have to remember to change all the dates on the end to 2010.
A little stressed right now. Lots of things to do and not feeling well. Extreme cold (for here, anyway) not helping the doing or the feeling better.
Wishing it was snowing and the school would cancel for a snowday.
Wishing also for focus to Get Shit Done.
Love to all.
Dealing with paper paralysis X 2. Due by 7pm. So tired. Argh.
Song choice relevant.